Sunday, 1 June 2008

Changes

Things happen. Some seem to emerge out of nowhere all of a sudden. Although even the greatest surprise often has been on its way for quite a while.

Something happened this past week. A great surprise - that had been on its way all along. It changes everything. Literally. Also this blog. In one way or the other. In momentary bewilderedness I thought about deleting both of my blogs. For now, I won't. But, also for now, I'm quite speechless, and I can't say for how long I will be.

What I can say is that this has become one of my favourite quotes: "Be still, and know that I am God." Thank you, Eleanor, thank you so much!

7 comments:

Gianna said...

oh, i hope you don't delete your blog...I have so many times almost deleted mine...mostly because there are people who wish me ill-intent and it hurts...

I don't know what happened to you, but your writing is beautiful and creative...

warm wishes to you,
G

Marian said...

Thanks, Gianna, and vice versa!

No, it was just the element of surprise, that made me react(!) a little impetuous, thinking I would have to delete. The same thought-pattern, actually, that could make me contemplate suicide so many times: in the power of that little voice in one's head... While it, on closer examination, wasn't even such a stupid thought: deletion, suicide... = transformation.

It was a marvellous surprise - and it looks like the speechlessness won't last very long :)

Gianna said...

I actually posted that I'm quitting today, but I'm thinking about possibly continuing with readers having no way of reaching me...no comments...I can disable comments from this point forward and I've already made it so I'm not notified of comments from the past...

I can't deal with the ugly comments I get.

I look forward to hearing your good news...I will still check your blog though I'm not going to do as many rounds as I did before among other blogs as it doesn't feel safe right now in my hypersensitive mode.

Marian said...

I know what you mean. Although it hasn't yet happened to me, I've seen "comments" on blogs that made my hair stand on end.

Nevertheless, it would be a great loss if you quitted! Your blog is so inspiring to me, and I'm sure it also is to many others.

There's more to the comment-issue, but work beckons right now... Later!

Marian said...

Ah, I see you've been into it :) - haven't been much around the past week.

Mean "comments" (and activism): Those "comments" I've seen on other people's blogs, that made my hair stand on end, I thought, I wouldn't be able to stand it if anyone attacked me like that. It hurts, even to witness someone else getting attacked in such a way hurts enormously. Just as it hurts to witness what was done to Luise, what is being done to I don't know how many people worldwide, continuously, and both "with the best of intentions" (the mental health - or rather: illness - system, or the "war against terror", that harms and kills thousands and thousands of innocent people), and things like Tibet, all those insanities, that are constantly going on and on.

It hurts because of the unconscious identification that takes place. This is what Thich Nhat Hanh talks about (fantastic video, thanks for posting it!), and it is what Jayson refers to in his comment. Identification is ok, it maybe even is necessary for not to become indifferent. But in order to transform the negative energy that the fear and anger, that result from unconscious identification, create into a positive one, one has to become conscious of the fear, the anger, and the identification that takes place - and this is some of the essential "message" or "wisdom" in Buddhism, as well as in all other spiritual teachings, actually.

The essence of Buddhism is quite simple. What makes it seem "heavy" sometimes is only the form in which it becomes communicated in, that can be difficult for a Westerner to get. How are we supposed to get this wisdom communicated in a to us unfamiliar form, when we aren't even able to get this very same wisdom communicated in the form of Christianity or Judaism?

Eckhart Tolle is an exceptional communicator of spiritual wisdom. Maybe because he is a Westerner, and has both the tools (a "modern", western education and language as well as an extraordinary presence, comparable to that of Thich Nhat Hanh). If or when(!) you have the inner peace and calm, watch the "A New Earth"-event. You don't need to have read the book. I hadn't. There are also some great video clips on YouTube, this one on relationships, for example, that somehow is of relevance when it comes to commenters. Although the situation of course is more difficult when you're confronted with an anonymous commenter who's somewhere out in cyberspace, compared to a face to face situation.

Hugs

Gianna said...

the youtube video didnt' ahve the right URL...

thanks marian

Marian said...

I just found out, me too. this should work.